I saw your character from afar, I noticed how your ways would illuminate a place but for so long I could not seek your face.
I witnessed how your life enlightened men and women alike, many pursued your beauty and to have you in their own embrace but so few so often did not seek thy face.
Your paths were perfect your heart inspired my soul, to be near you was a privilege and to be found in your company is what made my life whole. Enamored by you truly I began to chase but I would not seek thy face.
Your blessings were so near your friendship was within my grasp but my own conceits and intents have paralyzed me as an asp. Seeking your hands in your glory I almost had a taste but vanity was the pursuit as I did not seek thy face.
Such a monumental epiphany it was when I no longer sought approval, acceptance and belonging in what others believed but rather walked near to be near you and understand your life was not to be taken but received
For your love is not conditioned by an obedience to what you demand, it is not within your methods or within the blessing of your hands, it is within a knowledge of your character, a relationship, a covenant not bound by success or disgrace. May I no more seek your hands my first love I must seek thy face.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.PSALM 27:7-9
8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek.
9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
Seeking one’s face
This was something that I have pondered before in my life as a Christian, but in recent years I have come to see it in the light of relationships with others. To seek one’s face is something beyond the superficial interactions we are so accustomed to in relationships, it goes further than commonality and sacrifices self in the interest of revealing another. I am certain we all have had our fair share of those one sided friendships. More than often these relationships leave us weary and can almost isolate us from future pursuits of friendship as we have been leeched dry by these demanding chases after another’s affections.
Exhausted we can often settle for the superficial in our life and instead of sharing our baggage we instead accrue more and more until we find ourselves in the collapse of life.
Seeking someone’s face is a risk of complete exposure it is almost a reckless abandon to self-preservation, the very instinct we have to survive.
I have discovered that this death is not final! Instead of finding embarrassment, shame and disapproval I found acceptance, encouragement and intrigue. There is something absolutely powerful in humility and trust; you will find these two attributes are triumphs of God working within the human soul because we really do not have great capacity for either one.
I was terrified of losing control of my person when I started pursuing another’s heart. I have been fond of the concept of investing into someone’s life so much so that change would ensue, but the application of this was far from my hands to carry out. I liked my life, it was measurably predictable, comfortably maintained and in many ways was in a state of functional apathy. But time and time again I was getting this little nudge, either from dear friends or in this case a beautiful woman, to seek one’s face. You know that little seed of curiosity when you meet or even have known someone? You know a measure of who they are but there is a deep seated desire to know more.
In relationships we find these pauses or hesitations that steer our conversations and activities with one another, I have always wondered why I settle with the direction that these moments direct. At the edifice of something truly telling either of ourselves or another there is this deafening pause, this stop generated by self-preservation thus withholding the treasure altogether. I admit there is wisdom in withholding every now and then but I do think that this caution extends into my most cherished relationships. “Seek ye my face” is this not what we just long for in relationships? Do we not want the world around us to understand, empathize, and know who we really are?
“Seek ye my face” is this not what we just long for in relationships?
So one lowly day, I found myself no longer yielding to these selfish hesitations and I found what love is. I saw it square in the face and it resonated with what I knew of my Savior Jesus Christ. It was not another person, no it was me dead, lifeless, surrendered, and in a great step of faith transformed into something God could use. To what end was I used you may ask? The answer is not surprising if you are even a little acquainted with the Bible, I was used to love another!
“With great faith resides great capacity to love others and with great love great things are bound to be born.”TTHW
So hear me out when I tell you it is worth the wait in finding love, it is worth taking the time God deems fit to have YOU come to HIM to meet YOUR needs within HIS perfect purpose. You will find in seeking His face you will discover your own, your true image, your true capacity, and your true self as you were beautifully crafted and formed with great purpose. In finding who you are in Christ, you then will find you can reach into others lives in the deepest most meaningful ways. I always encourage those seeking love to find that they are first loved. When you can grasp the faith to believe that you indeed are loved, you too can seek one’s face in perfect, bliss filled love.
“I always encourage those seeking love to find that they are first loved.”TTHW
For your love is not conditioned by an obedience to what you demand, it is not within your ways or within the blessing of your hands; it is within a knowledge of your character, a relationship, a covenant not bound by success or disgrace. May I no more seek your hands my first love I must seek thy face.